They say I’m a rebel because I won’t let others tame my life. They say I’m too strong-willed. They say that I’m too different or too insane. I say why would I want to be same? Why would I want to be like so many others? All those people without spines or empty personalities, many that are blinded by what isn’t reality. They say I need to change or I’ll just keep making mistakes, as if we can’t control our fate or our lives change. They say to get help, it will fix me, it will make me better. They say it won’t be forever, they say the more I pop the pill the better I’ll get. They tell me not to stop, like if it was a threat. But the more I take, the worse I feel and the less I can deal. They say the emotions will stop taking over, but it’s more like these feelings have become my lover. They say time heals all wounds, but I see how determination and a strong will, persevere. They say not to focus on what’s behind but they don’t let me, my own path find. They want me to rewind, see what tortured me as a child. They want me to calm down my fire. To extinguish my passion, what makes me, me! What everyday sets me free. And it’s funny how now it all makes sense, when I’m not caged in by their fence. They said the pills would make me better but I have a message for them in the next newsletter. Their ideas weren’t right, all I had to do was fight. Their pills; only made me more unstable and made happiness seem like a fable. The positive effects they thought they brought, were only temporary and their drugs started messing with my memory. They only increased my symptoms, made my motivation for life a phantom. They thought that a man-made product could change my life, but it only tortured me day and night. They probably still think I’m not right, that I’m ruining my life. But I’ve never felt more stable and alive. With a clear direction of where I’m heading and what are the right things to do. So they can take their pills and I’ll stay with my strong will. I’ll reach the peak of each mountain I decide to climb. Then they’ll be the ones to ask, how was I able to conquer the past, to find the right path, put my life on track; build a strong foundation for others to admire? Then I’ll be the one to respond; that’s what happens when you’re made of passion and fire.
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