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She doubts herself and how good she may be. But why? Why consider herself less that she truly is? Why is she always so scared to plant her kiss? She wants to leave her mark but she’s scared to embark. She’s scared of failure, of losing it all, she’s scared of the rise but terrified of the fall. She lets the opportunities pass her left and right because she’s always scared to fight. She lies to everyone and herself, never knowing who to tell. She doesn’t know how to admit that what she fears is not a failure but rejection. She’s so worried about perfection that she won’t make any exemptions. The loss of the things she wants and constantly come back as taunts. She’s so focused on what others may think, that she’s almost become extinct.
-M.A.Fernández
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Soul to Ink- M.A.Fernández 
Sad… Maybe she’s just tired….. ……
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Hmmm, maybe. But of what?
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The trial and error of life. Speaking from my experience, I feel a tiredness in my spirit. Just tired of hoping and working and keeping a faith after doors have been closed in my face. Tired of games, tired of people, tired of praying. Maybe she had to go through something in life that took too much out of her! How do you heal spiritual fatigue?
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Damn. I have to say that is a good question? How does one provide hope for the hopeless?
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I have yet to find out! Some days are better than others.
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I believe it’s all about doing the things you love and bringing joy to the lives of others. Which in turn heals the soul.
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But what happens when the things you love become bleak? Ex. You worked in a field you were very passionate about but others mistook your passion for “looking for a fight” or “betrayal” now, the very field your were so passionate about became a contradiction of your character after following your heart. What you love and who you love, doesn’t match with what papers say you are, seen by everyone as something you are not. This probably doesn’t make any sense.
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No it actually makes perfect sense. They you change you adapt, you find new loves, new passions, new individuals. You move on to better things.
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That’s like telling me to survive without a heart and blood running in my veins. There are passions and people in life we do not choose – someone, somewhere, higher than us chose those things/that person before we incarnated on earth. “Many are called but few are chosen..”
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I’d still try new things. You never know what might happen
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Yea, maybe something closely related to that field. Maybe advocacy.
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Maybe. But I meant more like doing a hobby. Something that just fills you with joy.
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Hmmmm swimming, fishing, boating, or house hunting.
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Exactly
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Or, justice will be had and people will tell the TRUTH so my name will be cleared to keep the false reputation from following. It’s hard to live a lie others made up about you. It’s miserable poison.
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Trust me I understand. I personally think sometimes it’s easier to move on, depending the situation of course.
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Life moves on… No doubt about that but its eating at my soul. I keep praying about it and pushing myself with hopes to get stronger but there a nagging in My spirit that keeps coming back.
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I heard something really nice today, prayer dosen’t change situations but it changes people. Maybe that will happen here. Someone will change
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I’ve already changed, changed into a hermit.
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Not you but maybe someone else. Id pray for happiness not the situation
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dayum, even i regret for her.
But, this is mostly a formal message. 😀
Thanks a bunch for following my blog, I hope you like what you see.
Cheers mate!
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Everyone goes through it I believe. I hope so as well thanks for the comment.
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Amazing piece…love your work !!!
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Thank you
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I love poems and this is great.. 😊
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Thank you very much 😁
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