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Soul Demolisher

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The only thing that is wrong with the one that I was trying to get to know.

Was his constant ability to irk me,

Or maybe how I felt he always wanted to fuck me.

Not in the way one would like, in a way that would detroy my life.

The only thing that is wrong with the one that I was trying to get to know.

Was the pain he caused with his silence, feigning it was plain old ignorance.

Or maybe how I felt when he wasnt by me, how everything but me was carefree.

The only thing that is wrong with the one that I was trying to get to know.

Was that he expected me,to be more for him than for me.

Or maybe that I could no longer be as free.

The only thing that is wrong with the one that I was trying to get to know.

Is that my love was not enough for him, no matter what I did I could never win.

Or maybe it was the emptyness I felt every

time he left, my heart felt no greater death.

The only thing that is wrong with the one that I was trying to get to know.

Is that Im still waiting for him to show,

Or maybe that I know it’s all a false hope.

The only thing that is wrong with the one that I was trying to get to know.

Was the longer I waited the more lost I felt, or maybe it was how I questioned the cards that I was dealt.

The only thing that is wrong with the one that I was trying to get to know.

Is that he is no longer next to me, so maybe…there is no point of being free.

-M.A.Fernández

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10 Rules I Shouldn’t have Broken

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Day 14

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  1. I gave my all and accepted nothing in return, then decided it was his turn.
  2. I trusted without a reason and kept it going through the seasons.
  3. I gave myself willingly, just to live the moment, disregarding the future torment.
  4. I disrespected my commitments, acting as if there weren’t clear restrictions.
  5. I said I would never again deceive, but there I was letting false words free.
  6. I hurt the person I most loved, making him lose all his trust.
  7. I looked deep into his eyes and fell in love without knowing his story, expecting he would want to treat me like a trophy.
  8. I got better and jumped back in, even though I knew I wouldn’t win.
  9.  I gave chances time and time again when they didn’t deserve them.
  10. I put others principles above my own when their motives were truly unknown.

-M.A. Fernández

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The Keeper

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My past is rough my path is broken, some might laugh and think I’m joking but the reality is that God has spoken. This is something that I forgot, but now that it’s in my heart, I have to choose if I will obey him or not. my decision should be clear, but my heart and my soul are consumed with fear because I’m always worried about what is in the rear. My passion and envy take a hold of me sometimes and they don’t let me reach my prime. I know that God has something more, he doesn’t want to see me crawling on the floor. For what father forsakes his child, and leaves him to the beast of the wild. I know my God does not do this and for this, I smile. I know he will always try to get me back because I can see how he won’t let others attack. Through my bad decisions and sinful ways, his love never fades. And for this tonight once again I will praise and my hands I will raise. I am taking part in the best race and this race will let me see him face-to-face. I know I’ve made mistakes, I may have caused a lot of pain, I probably even made it rain, on those lives who at a point to me we’re just a game. But I know God has forgiven me for my past and now I have the choice to pick the right track. I feel the strength that he has given me to fight back. He Is protecting me when the devil tries to attack. And let’s be real, we know that our father does not lack. We are on the winning team and this is more than just a dream, I am telling you that God is willing to make you clean. So do not let the enemy cloud your judgment, because this is more than just about this moment. I know that sometimes we can be scared but I assure you that if you seek him, God will be there.

-M.A. Fernández

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Day 3 – Compassion

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Day 3

Find the nearest book (of any kind). Turn to page 8. Use the first ten full words on the page in a poem. You may use them in any order, anywhere in the poem.

Book: If I Stay – Gayle Forman

“I’m pondering going back to bed,” I say. “My cello’s”

 

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I was walking down a road and my eyes focused on a cello.

In the back of an alley broken and alone,

yet so beautiful, it called me to take it home.

I went down the alley and stood in front of the piece, that reminds me; of me.

Still pondering what to do, but knowing what I would want someone else to do, I stopped thinking and decided to choose.

Take it home I must and repair each part from toe to the head.

I reached my home and placed the cello on my bed.

Each day taking time to fix something new and rejoicing  I decided to fix it after thinking it through.

I finally finish my masterpiece and I can almost hear her say, thanks for repairing me.

I look down happy and sadden, because I’m waiting for the day that someone shows me this same compassion, even in small rations.

-M.A. Fernández

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