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Soul Demolisher

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The only thing that is wrong with the one that I was trying to get to know.

Was his constant ability to irk me,

Or maybe how I felt he always wanted to fuck me.

Not in the way one would like, in a way that would detroy my life.

The only thing that is wrong with the one that I was trying to get to know.

Was the pain he caused with his silence, feigning it was plain old ignorance.

Or maybe how I felt when he wasnt by me, how everything but me was carefree.

The only thing that is wrong with the one that I was trying to get to know.

Was that he expected me,to be more for him than for me.

Or maybe that I could no longer be as free.

The only thing that is wrong with the one that I was trying to get to know.

Is that my love was not enough for him, no matter what I did I could never win.

Or maybe it was the emptyness I felt every

time he left, my heart felt no greater death.

The only thing that is wrong with the one that I was trying to get to know.

Is that Im still waiting for him to show,

Or maybe that I know it’s all a false hope.

The only thing that is wrong with the one that I was trying to get to know.

Was the longer I waited the more lost I felt, or maybe it was how I questioned the cards that I was dealt.

The only thing that is wrong with the one that I was trying to get to know.

Is that he is no longer next to me, so maybe…there is no point of being free.

-M.A.Fernández

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Maybe Someday

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His fear is evident; we’ve been waiting so long, and many times we weren’t able to hold on. Our paths, cross and crossed but never seemed to align, no matter how much we searched we could never each other find. Now we’re here face to face but no one knows what choice to make or if we should just let it all fade. But the memories are buried deep inside, and there begging that we don’t let them die. We’ve survived too much to give up now, but the question always remains and that is how. How do we let go of all the scars traced across our hearts, those scars that at night tear us apart. He’s the one I’ve been searching for all this time, not knowing he’s been here all along, tied to the notion that we belong. If only we could let go of all the hurt and all the pain, maybe we could erase our mistakes and finally mend all the heartbreaks. But his fear is evident and there’s not much I can do, except maybe say, I’ve always loved you.

 -M.A. Fernández

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