Personal Narcotics

Day 29

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I’m on the brink of salvation, dying of starvation. And you what sustains me, so far but so close. One minute you’re gone, the other you’re here. Dying to come forward but held back by fear. Letting the voices your decisions steer, always watching the rear. And I keep dying while you keep making your mind. Leaving no peace to find. The drug I never need but always choose and I’m so scared to lose. Addicted to a substance so real, I’m waiting for its magic to commence and my soul to heal. This deal has to seal, but then again you can always melt steel. Under fire, we transform, either to a better or a worse form. We are the ones you choose to reform or deform.

-M.A. Fernández

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Contrition

Day 21

 

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What it means to love someone and have them slip through your fingers. To wonder where you went wrong and if there was any remedy. Regretting every bad decision, that led to the present situation. Unspoken words, unreasonable fights. Empty days, followed by empty nights. Misgiven chances, no strong support. Fast paced actions with no clear follow through. Unclear divulgation of emotions, sharing; unsharable torments. Thinking too much and forgetting to live the moment. Giving all and receiving so little in return. Conforming with bits and pieces, scraps left at an empty table. And you wonder where you went wrong; if it was all your fault, or if maybe it was just doomed from the start.

-M.A. Fernández

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Life’s Bridle

Day 19

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It’s become such a cliche, writing about love and pain. But an overwhelmed heart leads to a mind with no ideas. A mind with the same thoughts pounding day after day.Thoughts that take away serenity. The enemy has becomes so unclear, the heart is guided by fear. A heavy chest, so alone and it makes no sense how we all feel the same, but nothing ever changes. We talk about heartbreaks, betrayal, regret, again and again, we fall into the same situations caused by us or by others. We live in a cycle that nobody wants, but nobody tries to set apart. So we stay in our misery, waiting for some divine intervention that never seems to come. And are scars get bigger, while we keep pulling triggers.

-M.A. Fernández

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D.E.N.I.A.L

Day 18

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Denial; no matter how much I write, how much I express, I can’t seem to let go of the questions and regrets. The ones that haunt me and night and take away my desire to fight. Those that take my smile away and makes my creativeness fade. Questions and regrets that remove the ability to be a functional being. The ones that cloud my mind and make me blind.Denial; Death Equals Not Identifying A Loss.

-M.A. Fernández

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Unseen,Unheard

Day 17

In the mystery of time and lack of knowledge, lies the desire of the heart and mind. To fill blanks left without a scribble, trying to solve the most simple riddles. But time gives no clues and knowledge is never enough to the discern the secrets that lie deep within the heart. Past the scars and blockages, the rush of blood and broken arteries. What is knowledge in the face of uncertainty? For the unmarked stays unmarked, unless the willing set the truth apart. But there are always words untold and secrets to hold. Paradox’s that lock the mind, and hide the soul. No blueprints, no solutions to burned trails hidden on empty maps. The unknown isn’t always shown, things remain hidden under the sun, criminals remain on the run. Children stop having fun. Variables change, but people remain the same.

-M.A. Fernández

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We the Slaves

Day 16

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Do you own things? or Do they own you?

Do you have an addiction you just can’t break?

Do you stay up till you notice it’s too late?

What’s the first thing you do when you awake?

Can you let go of everything?

Do you own things? or Do things own you?

-M.A. Fernández

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Who Let The Monster Out?

Day 15

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At the end of the day, when the night beckons;

the monster comes out to play,

the present lets in the pain.

Thoughts get louder and reason gets softer,

nothing makes sense and all is insane.

All shades turn the same and strength seems to fade.

At the end of the day, there are no barricades.

-M.A. Fernández

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